What I really want to say is probably best left tucked away or shared with just a few close friends, but part of me wants to talk about it. Long suffering or "dying quietly" is not my strongest fruit. I go round in thought circles, part of me wanting to be transparent and part of me questioning the motive for transparency. I'm reading things that make me wonder what life would have been like if things were different, growing up in a happy, healthy, God-centered family for example. Useless really to even ponder. I mean, what is the point? It begs lots of questions and there are too many corridors of chance and choice to explore that it is impossible to figure out how things would have been different or how they would be different today...like I said, useless waste of brain activity. I've got a limited number of neuron firings in this brain, I'd better use them wisely. Especially now.
So. I'm sorry if I'm being "mysterious" or throwing things out there that can't really be discussed. In the end, it's probably nothing more than light and momentary trouble. Think of it as Vesuvius blowing off a little steam to avoid an eruption :) and pray my "prayering" friends, pray.
"But those who suffer he delivers in their suffering; he speaks to them in their affliction." Job 36:15
"My comfort in my suffering is this: Your promise preserves my life." Psalm 119:50
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Hang in there! I <3 you!
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